Yesterday, I thought my lack of motivation was going to be certain doom to my 45 of 45. I just did not want to get up from work and reading to move onto cleaning/organizing. I felt tired and overwhelmed. I decided to, finally, get my butt up and headed outside to clean leaves. That is when the motivation kicked in. I decided to clean up the back patio and make a plan for the weekend — family yard clean-up. My son has already decided to forgo actual work but instead make mud piles to play in. That is fine with me – just as long as my six year old is entertained enough to allow my husband and I to clean up.
I actually also made a lot of headway during my late afternoon/early evening work hours. I was feeling pretty good but my energy finally zapped out around 6:30. Work ended at 7 and it was time for the bath time/nighttime routine. I angrily made my way through it but could not muster up the energy to actually make myself some dinner or even decide on what I wanted for my husband to pick up. I had a crappy “dinner”. The day ended in a sour mood.
The hours I need to really try to adjust myself are the after 5 pm hours. For some reason, my energy, mood, patience, etc. are all drained and I turn into a not-so-nice person. Unfortunately, I had another night of less than 5 hours sleep but am hoping my self-actualization of the post 5 pm hours may help me make some positive changes in my demeanor.