Initially, I was going to make this blog a remainder of the week post. However, today I am feeling quite cruddy and that’s just discouraging. I have been eating healthy, exercising, and doing meditation. Instead of energized, I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus. I still have this same sinus infection/ear infection. It has almost been a month. The antibiotics do not help and, unfortunately, today I started wheezing a bit. That means a third trip back to the doctor’s office next week is most likely. I did tell Rob that if I still feel this terrible on Sunday that I am taking the day to rest/sleep. Work and after school have been very busy and a tad stressful. I have had very little down time this week. I am sure that is not helping my recovery.
However, I will now list the positives of my week: being a classroom helper on Tuesday, Roger advancing to the next level in swimming, starting a liberal local book club, a very good teacher conference on Thursday, coffee with some great ladies this morning, dinner and conversation with my parents on Wednesday, and lots of love and sweetness from my son and my husband. Seeing that list makes my infection not seem so bad!
Update on the remainder of my week:
Wednesday I had an appointment with a new therapist. I was told to arrive 15 minutes early to fill out paperwork. I arrived early and no one was there until about 10 minutes after my appointment time. That was a huge turn off. Second turn-off was the décor. Way too much cutesy/ranch type of décor with an overload of essential oils. My third issue was her disagreeing with my internist about ending hormones at the five year mark. And the final issue was that my appointment ended at 45 minutes (and that included the time they were late and the paperwork was filled out), so in actuality my session was 20-25 minutes and cost my co-pay of $40. I did make a second appointment for November, but am not sure if she is the right fit. Maybe I should try a second go. I’m sure I will obsessively think that through. That same day I made a flu shot appointment for Roger. That was traumatic. We got the numbing patch and he still cried and screamed when the shot was administered.
Yesterday I took my husband to his endoscopy/colonoscopy procedure. One polyp was found and will be biopsied. They took other cultures to make sure nothing else is going on in there. He was very nervous but the general anesthesia seemed to have no affect on him after he woke up. For me, I am usually tired and I nap and then I’m up all night. He was up the remainder of the day and went to Roger’s hip hop class with me.
The beginning of the week I made a doctor’s appointment for my remaining cough and my stuffed right ear/popping ear. Today was my appointment and I was correct: I have an ear infection now. It is always something! Another round of antibiotics and, hopefully, all will be clear.
Yesterday was my first day back at work. It was an 8 hour day. I took hourly breaks to walk and move my arms. During my lunch break, I did my 10 minute headspace meditation program and rested in bed an additional 10 minutes or so. After school, Roger had homework and then Occupational Therapy. After OT, we had our normal Chick-fil-A dinner and play date with his friend at our house. It was a long day, especially since part of my workload occurred between the 7 to 9 o’clock hours. I was very sore by the time I went to bed and woke up pretty sore too.
Today, I, again, took breaks and had my meditation/rest time during lunch. This afternoon will be pretty packed with Roger having a trial singing lesson at School of Rock, followed by his swimming lesson, followed by dinner at my parents house, followed by spelling homework, followed by showers/bed. I’m exhausted thinking about it! However, the routine and new 5 minutes-per-hour (in the morning) exercise schedule has put me in a better mood than I have been.
I am hoping my health, wellness, and recovery will flourish.
Today I am very hopeful.
Today I woke up feeling down, just an overall feeling of sadness. I looked around the messy living room and felt unease. I really wanted to clean it all up but was lacking the energy. Also, I had plans for coffee with some friends. I reluctantly went to coffee, for when I am down I am not feeling social. It was a nice hour but I still felt down and tired when I left (despite the additional 16 ounces of coffee).
I keep wondering why I feel so down and today’s Headspace meditation had me realize one factor. Today, it was focusing on if you are feeling pain and I realized my intention through the meditation and during this sick leave was to recover and rejuvenate. I am still in pain through my arms, my entire back, and now my feet. With virtually weeks of rest, my body has not rejuvenated itself. It has actually worsened in some areas. I was hoping when I was to return to work I would feel better than when I had my last working day.
Everyday I have thought about updating my blog and everyday I am too exhausted to open the computer. The high allergens are not helping my activity level. Add to that the limited activity of the day and I am an achy zombie most of the day! I have not been consistently taking any pain medication (even OTC, especially due to the fact I am having a lumbar epidural next Wednesday). My sleep and energy levels are the same post-op as pre-op, which I am not very happy about. I have been sleeping alone downstairs and I still cannot get a consistent five hours of sleep per night. I have begun taking melatonin which makes me fall asleep quicker, but does not aide in any other way.
I don’t want this post to be all bah humbug, so I will note some positive changes I have been trying to make in the past couple weeks. I have been attempting daily meditation via the app Headspace. Secondly, I have started using MyFitnessPal app again, consistently. I have shed a couple of pounds but find it hard to lose weight if I try to eat more than 1200 calories, which is too restrictive for me. Hopefully when I can add some exercise in, that will help my endeavor of losing these 35 pounds I have gained in TX the past 4 years!
Next Thursday, I have my next appointment with my surgeon and am hoping I can go back to work part-time, at least. I am very bored but do not think I have the energy level for full-time work, yet.
Well, I tried the hydrocodone with Benadryl to see if I could avoid the itchiness. It did not work, so I am taking 4 Advil every 8 hours or so. I slept much better last night due to the lack of itching and lack of repeated daytime naps. The day of surgery was like one long nap most of the day. Yesterday and today, I took only one afternoon nap.
The surgeon told Rob that my pain level would not increase from how I felt post-surgery. That’s not really been the case. Today my inner arm and elbow both feel like they’ve been cut open (which they have). Plus, my right shoulder feels wonky. It must be because of relying on my right arm these past few days. And, of course, when moving some Garbage Pail Kids, my left lumbar back went out/popped. I took muscle relaxers and put the heating pad on it, but it still hurts.
I attempted my first shower with a garbage bag arm and Rob waiting right outside. Who knew that a simple shower that is usually refreshing could wipe someone out so much!
Tomorrow is the first day of 1st grade and Rob’s last day home with me. Here’s hoping it is an easier day!
Yes, tomorrow is the big day: ulnar nerve decompression and transposition. I haven’t written lately due to trying to get done as much as I can before surgery and before Roger’s first day of school on Monday. I have been so wrapped up in planning that I have not had much time to think about the surgery. That was until last night.
Last night, Roger woke me up around 1 am to move into his bed. After he woke me, I started calculating the amount of hours I had before my surgery. I was up the next two hours, consumed with thoughts of surgery. Thankfully, I fell asleep for a couple more hours before starting the day.
Anxious is the feeling of the day. Hopefully, that will soon pass, and the new feeling will be rested.