Yup, that’s me. I’m a lazy blogger. It takes virtually no time to write a short blog, but I have just contemplated it and gone on with my day. For the quadrillionth time, I am going to try to blog as part of my “be healthy” 2018 New Year’s Resolution. Blogging usually gives me some clarity or closure of feelings. At the very least, it gives me a sounding board for my complaining! So, if I do not see you before, see you again in 2018!
Today started out as most weekdays –with the struggle over Roger’s shoes not being tight enough. I know the weather change enhances some sensory issues. This Wednesday it manifested itself over a shirt to wear. The first shirt I chose was sweatshirt material. Roger said it was too soft and to get it off him. He was very upset. The second shirt’s sleeves were a 1/4 inch too long for him, so he completely freaked out for a second time. The third shirt worked but his shoes had to be tied multiple times. The walk to school had light rain. That he did not complain about. The walk home the rain became heavier. C’est la vie!
So today is a cold, rainy day. The perfect day to be under covers in bed. I tried to convince myself that I could skip my exercise for the day, since I did it the previous 3 days. However, this seems to be my cycle. By mid week, I usually start excusing myself from exercise. Since I am volunteering the next two days and have an ENT appointment, I know I may not have time which made today’s workout more crucial for me.
Well, I did it and it’s over and I’m glad I did it and I’m glad it’s over.
I am hoping to have turned the corner on exercise and wellness. Yesterday, I went to a yoga class for the first time in YEARS! It was a restorative class and last night my cervical pain has been at its lowest. Today, I did a 30 minute streaming cardio class. The first fifteen minutes seemed pretty easy but the last fifteen was pretty difficult. It felt great to complete. I am hoping exercise along with my Headspace meditation will make dealing with my own and Roger’s anxiety easier.
It’s Tuesday and it’s Halloween. The day started pretty okay. Roger had a mini freak-out over his shoes not being tied tight enough. However, besides that, the day has been good thus far. I spent my “lunch break” volunteering at the school’s book fair. It was actually quite fun being a cashier and interacting with the kiddos. I decided to volunteer again tomorrow during the time Roger’s class will be going to the book fair.
I have not been sticking to my calorie counting as strictly as I would like. I even had a few pieced of Halloween candy this weekend. However, I have been walking quite a bit more (roughly 12000-13000 steps a day). I have decided to focus on me and try to be better with the food and the activity level. I really need to start an exercise routine and that is the one aspect I am really having difficulty with. I know I will feel better but just getting in gear is hard. I’m not going to beat myself up too much for it. I will keep walking more and eating better. I will try to start additional exercise by the new year!
Initially, I was going to make this blog a remainder of the week post. However, today I am feeling quite cruddy and that’s just discouraging. I have been eating healthy, exercising, and doing meditation. Instead of energized, I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus. I still have this same sinus infection/ear infection. It has almost been a month. The antibiotics do not help and, unfortunately, today I started wheezing a bit. That means a third trip back to the doctor’s office next week is most likely. I did tell Rob that if I still feel this terrible on Sunday that I am taking the day to rest/sleep. Work and after school have been very busy and a tad stressful. I have had very little down time this week. I am sure that is not helping my recovery.
However, I will now list the positives of my week: being a classroom helper on Tuesday, Roger advancing to the next level in swimming, starting a liberal local book club, a very good teacher conference on Thursday, coffee with some great ladies this morning, dinner and conversation with my parents on Wednesday, and lots of love and sweetness from my son and my husband. Seeing that list makes my infection not seem so bad!
Yesterday was my first day back at work. It was an 8 hour day. I took hourly breaks to walk and move my arms. During my lunch break, I did my 10 minute headspace meditation program and rested in bed an additional 10 minutes or so. After school, Roger had homework and then Occupational Therapy. After OT, we had our normal Chick-fil-A dinner and play date with his friend at our house. It was a long day, especially since part of my workload occurred between the 7 to 9 o’clock hours. I was very sore by the time I went to bed and woke up pretty sore too.
Today, I, again, took breaks and had my meditation/rest time during lunch. This afternoon will be pretty packed with Roger having a trial singing lesson at School of Rock, followed by his swimming lesson, followed by dinner at my parents house, followed by spelling homework, followed by showers/bed. I’m exhausted thinking about it! However, the routine and new 5 minutes-per-hour (in the morning) exercise schedule has put me in a better mood than I have been.
I am hoping my health, wellness, and recovery will flourish.
Today I am very hopeful.
Everyday I have thought about updating my blog and everyday I am too exhausted to open the computer. The high allergens are not helping my activity level. Add to that the limited activity of the day and I am an achy zombie most of the day! I have not been consistently taking any pain medication (even OTC, especially due to the fact I am having a lumbar epidural next Wednesday). My sleep and energy levels are the same post-op as pre-op, which I am not very happy about. I have been sleeping alone downstairs and I still cannot get a consistent five hours of sleep per night. I have begun taking melatonin which makes me fall asleep quicker, but does not aide in any other way.
I don’t want this post to be all bah humbug, so I will note some positive changes I have been trying to make in the past couple weeks. I have been attempting daily meditation via the app Headspace. Secondly, I have started using MyFitnessPal app again, consistently. I have shed a couple of pounds but find it hard to lose weight if I try to eat more than 1200 calories, which is too restrictive for me. Hopefully when I can add some exercise in, that will help my endeavor of losing these 35 pounds I have gained in TX the past 4 years!
Next Thursday, I have my next appointment with my surgeon and am hoping I can go back to work part-time, at least. I am very bored but do not think I have the energy level for full-time work, yet.