Category: anxiety

After yet another 2 o’clock hour awakening (2:14 to be exact), I am a zombie.  Seriously.  I am no longer inhabiting this body.  Something that is barely functioning in airplane mode is inhabiting my body.  With today’s workload, I was unable to nap and am afraid the drive to Grapevine and back may be my downfall.  I usually yawn my way there but hope I do not end up closer to sleep…

One may think my child will be utterly exhausted after a full-day of school after waking so early.  HA!  He will be raring to go and off we are to go to the CAC.  I hear heat, humidity, and sun really wake you up.  If I’m a zombie now, I can’t even imagine what I will turn into by 6:30 this evening.  Seriously, I am trying to conjure what I shall be:  a comatose zombie?!

 

Well, the happiness I had a couple of weeks ago ceased when I ceased sleeping “well” (I did not sleep well before but it has gotten worse).  I have been crabby, so irritable, and a pleasure to be around.  Luckily, today was my appointment with my psychiatrist.  Again, we are trying a new medication.  However, this medication takes about 4 weeks to build up in your system, so I have to remain on these non-altering, constipation-inducing pills until my next appointment on Monday, August 8th.

On another pleasant note, my son’s anxiety is through the roof.  I guess having two anxious parents does not help one bit.  However, my son is five and crying hysterically that he won’t be able to take his vitamins or brush his teeth before school because there is not enough time.  This was not always so, as he has asked in the past, to take vitamins when he gets home.  Each day his anxiety builds more and more about small issues.  It seems some of his sensory issues have been replaced with anxiety regarding non-sensory issues.  I wonder if that occurs….hmmm, will have to ask the specialists.

Needless-to-say, the household has been a joy….wanna come over one morning?!

 

As an infant, many people have their babies in a pack-n-play or bassinet next to their bed.  The child will then be moved to a crib…toddler bed…twin bed, etc. in their own bedroom.  Our situation started out much the same as we moved Roger to a crib…

All was good until about 12 months of age, I believe.  Exhaustion makes my memory hazy. Around that age, Roger would awake moments after falling asleep in his crib.  I was not one who could do the “cry it out” method.  Sooooooo, Roger ended up in our bed.  Eventually, we brought his toddler bed, put it against the wall and pushed our queen bed against it.  It was like we were back to the bassinet days.  However, at this age, he would suffer through all these soothing rituals to try to fall asleep.  Nothing worked for hours upon hours.  Fortunately, our pediatrician recommended a very small dose of melatonin.

Fast forward to almost age 6…
We have graduated from the “family bed” to one adult sleeping in the king bed in the “big bedroom” while the other adult sleeps with Roger in two beds pushed together….to two beds slightly separated….to two beds on different parts of the same bedroom.  I am usually the lucky adult who gets to sleep in my son’s room.  Recently, Roger has been waking in the middle of the night and climbing into the twin bed I get to sleep in.

Sleep…what is that?  I am averaging 1.5 – 5 hours of sleep per night.  This is getting absolutely ridiculous.  Next Wednesday, I am hoping for a godsend of an ABA therapist who will begin our journey to end this Hell I have created.  Wish ME luck!