Ending February

Wow, one-sixth of 2018 is complete.  Today, I have a slower work pace, as the project responses have slowed down and I can concentrate on different aspects of my work as well.  It has also given me a chance to get up and move around more, which is needed on the day after the “dusting incident”.  I was able to clean the kitchen, to the best of my ability.  This helps since this is where I am currently situated on a stiff chair.

In addition, I was able to break free and have an actual hour break at coffee with my lady friends.  It was a nice change of pace.  Unfortunately, we mainly talk about our kids, instead of ourselves.  I guess that happens when you become a parent — your identity as an individual diminishes into that of a parent.

Now I am experiencing the downside of a slow-paced work day:  exhaustion.  When everything is busy, you don’t notice.  Right now, I am fighting to keep my eyes open.

Gotta get up and move around.  See you in March!

Unintentional Hiatus

I have a few minutes and due to today’s “dusting accident” I cannot lounge in my comfy chair.  Stuck upright, I decided to blog.  I cannot believe the last day I blogged was February 9th – 18 days ago.

There have been quite a few changes since that time.  Let me pause and see what was happening on the 9th and I will see what I was doing then and comment on the changes.

Well, that wasn’t the most exciting of blog posts…not sure this will be either!  Well, my husband gave notice at his job and has been working from home as an independent artist since February 19th.  We are into the second week and things are going considerably better than I thought.  Work has been considerably busier than usual due to a huge yearly project.  It is nice having that workload, actually.  It makes the day move faster and I think it made the transition easier having my husband home with me.

Mental health wise:  I had my second appointment with the therapist and was not as thrilled as I was the first meeting.  There is no stress management plan in the works.  I think I need to “stress” that at our next appointment on March 6th. (ba-dum-ch)

Physical health wise:  The past few weeks my elbow has been killing me (where I had ulnar nerve surgery).  Last week I had an appointment with the orthopedic surgeon.  She believes the pain is stemming from my cervical issues.  She used a water hose in describing the “Double crush syndrome” with the ulnar nerve and my cervical issues.  Two people are stepping on a water hose, when one person steps off, the water may flow, but it still needs to get around the second blockage.  My neck and elbow were both crushing the nerve.  One blockage has been taken care of but my discs may be pressing on my nerve as well.  I have an appointment scheduled for Thursday to discuss, yet another, cervical epidural with the pain doctor.  I guess while I am there I will discuss my dusting incident.  I was enjoying dusting upstairs, twisted wrong (I guess) and sharp pain in my lower left back down my left leg.  Tried meds, icing, hot bath, and it still hurts.  Guess it was a good thing Rob works from home and could pick Roger up!

Roger wise:  Roger was accepted into the STEM Academy at Donald Elementary for 2nd grade.  We applied because it sounded awesome, but we knew the odds were low — about 450 families applied for 80/90 seats (20-25 students for each grade K-3).  The decision to go would be made on the off-chance Roger got selected.  I reached out to Roger’s past BCBA, his special education teacher, his long-term substitute teacher, and his principal asking their advice.  Basically, they all agreed that Roger was a “hands-on” learner and would excel in an learning environment that was 50% hands-on.  We always have the option to return to his neighborhood school.  Roger will be going!

Here’s hoping I will be writing more and in less pain!

Happy Friday!

Today has been a good day.  That is, mainly, thanks to a great first session with a new therapist in Denton.  I knew checking her FB and seeing her being a fan of Dawkin’s “The God Delusion” was a good indicator.

One of the issues with therapy is usually when you find you have nothing to talk about.  Today, we gabbed and I could’ve talked more.  One of our topics of discussion was the prevalence of religion and high-maintenance individuals in the surrounding areas.  She understood why, once going to the neighborhood school, my stress-level and anxiety went up.  She said she was told to try a Brownie troop for her daughter and it had many girls in my neighborhood (this was about 5 years ago).  She said the girls and the parents were very entitled and, downright, rude to her and her daughter, especially since they were not religious.  This makes me want to rebel in the opposite direction and show my opposition to the hypocrisy of most religious zealots.  However, that is not my main focus, but it could be a fun side-project.

I am looking forward to my next visit in 10 days.  I woke up excited to try a new therapist and left looking forward to going back.  One cannot ask for more!

Freezing

Today is not the coldest day we have had this winter.  However, for some reason, I cannot get the chill out of my bones.  I have to take Roger to a swimming lesson later and all I dream of is taking a hot bath and going under the covers!  I am done accomplishing anything today, except for body heat generation.

I had a nice teacher meeting with the long-term substitute (who is a retired teacher).  She told me how fantastic Roger is, how intelligent, and thoughtful he is.  It was great to hear.  She has no concerns about him.  Who knew he would be so well-adjusted when we started this autism journey?  Sure, we still have our daily shoe torture, but the pluses outweigh the minuses by far!  I am so proud of him.  At 7, he has worked harder than most adults I know.  He has his school therapies, his private therapies, and his other lessons.  He is definitely not a quitter and full of love.  I think we have produced a far better person than either Rob or I am singularly — that is the goal of reproduction, eh?

Funny, spending those few minutes reflecting on Roger helped me deflect my fixating on how cold I am.  I no longer feel so cold.  I am sure I will have a different mindset once I return from my walk to pick Roger up from school and back!

Last week and new beginnings this week

Last week was a really tough week.  My mood was incredibly low, as was my patience.  There were many stressors in regards to deliveries, appointments, and feedback (or lack thereof) in regards to Roger’s academic progress.  My week was filled with many thoughts all over the place and total lack of focus.

Today I have decided to try and get back into the swing of things.  This is a theme of my life:  out-of-whack week followed by an in-focus week (or attempt to that).  So, today I have focused on work, exercise, my weekly schedule (and Roger’s), and some laundry and garbage chores.

Today, I had a podiatrist appointment (I need orthotics due to some feet issues).  He politely stressed that I need to be healthier.  I couldn’t agree more.  I am hoping my motivation can remain.  It comes and goes so quickly!

I have a new therapist appointment on Friday of this week.  She is a “psychotherapist”.  I am not sure how different that is from the counseling I have received in the past.  I hope this time I “click” with the therapist.  I always do some on-line research when I make appointments.  On FB, I saw that she “liked” the God Delusion, so that is a positive to me!