Month: December 2020

Chills

Today was a pretty ordinary day – work and school. However, the mood of the day changed when a mother I know reported that her husband tested positive for Covid. He was going to take a flight and first had to take a rapid test. She said he was positive around 11:30 this morning. It was worrisome and I was concerned for her and her son. However, we went about our school and work day pretty much in the same spirit.

At 1 pm I get a message that she is on her way to the ER because her husband’s lungs were bad. One and a half hours and a casual test taken to board a flight to rushing to the emergency room. I got chills. And I keep getting chills when I relay or recall to myself the situation. It is so scary and so close. This could be me.

I have to admit this is the only Covid positive person I know. I am lucky to not have been dealt the hand of knowing anyone who has passed away or ended up in the ICU during the pandemic. We are in the thick of it here in Texas and people complain daily about their rights being taken away. Who knew wearing a mask was so difficult? Do you want to know what’s difficult – not being able to breath!

What a week!

What a week it has been for me! But that doesn’t involve any awesome adventures or life changing elements. It means it has been a hard week for me to make it through. AND IT”S NOT EVEN OVER – 1 more day!

Every day this week felt like it should be a Friday. This week was super busy but so exhausting. The days dragged in as much as it wasn’t Friday every day. Work has been crazy busy. Virtual school work has been crazy busy. Getting ready for the holidays – yup, crazy busy.

Maybe the last one is why this week is more exhausting than it should. Tonight is the first night of Hanukkah. Monday, after work and school, I wrapped Roger’s 8 gifts. He also gets Christmas. Yes, he may be a tad spoiled.

Or maybe this week is more exhausting than it should be because each day after work/school I had a task. Monday I’ve explained. Tuesday I visited my parents. I love seeing them but there is a stress that is mounting that I believe is due to the quarantine. Wednesday I cleaned quickly before Roger’s play date came over. Today we had about an hour of school work to attend to after my job ended. Now Rob is getting last minute items and Roger is counting down the minutes until sundown – 5:21 pm central time – which is menorah time and, more importantly for him, gift time.

I am so looking forward to the real Friday being over and done (or at least the obligation part of it). Do I have big plans for the weekend? If you call getting sleep and being lazy big plans, then I’m living the high life!

Bliss

Bliss has changed it’s meaning for me. Today it is simply meaning the end of the work week and the end of being a learning coach for the week. Almost 10 hours of staring at a computer screen – and still staring as I type this. It is going to be blissful closing the computer. I cannot stare at my phone screen because my son is playing Pokemon Go. I’m lucky enough to fold laundry and watch The Real Housewives of (fill in the blank). Unfortunately, I do have to work for a very short time (30 minutes) but early-ish in the morning for a Saturday (7 a.m.-ish).

Bliss has many meanings. For me it also means the absence of stress. Please no stress. Fingers crossed.

Just a normal Thursday

Last night I slept 4.5 hours. I thought I was going to get a good night’s sleep and 1 am arrives. I have to pee. Can I hold it the rest of the night? Let me debate this with myself. Conclusion: I get up to pee. A bit later feel the urgency again. No discussion, just get up. Trying to fall back asleep. I’m so sweaty. The heat is set at 66 and it’s 37 degrees out but it’s on and I’m hot. I get up again to lower the air one degree. As I’m laying in bed, I realize I feel a gentle breeze. Did I put the air on? Time passes. That is definitely the air. I get back up and turn off the air and lower the heat one degree. It takes me til after 3 to fall back asleep. I am dead asleep when my alarm goes off at 5:50 to start an incredibly busy workday at 6:30 and virtual learning coaching after 8 am. Both jobs are done. Can I now call it a day?

Poll Results

Well, that poll was a real stinker! I guess I will be writing for myself. That is what it is anyhow. A time of self-reflection. An online journal or diary, if you will. Today I have been staring at a computer screen off and on (more on than off) for the past 9 hours. I changed my profile a bit, linked to Facebook and Twitter, and wanted to thank those who responded to my poll (Thanks NO ONE)! However, that shall not discourage me. Follow me, if you choose, be a quiet bystander, or a vicious troll. Ta for now – my eyes sorely need a break!