Month: November 2017

Bring it on!

It seems like last week I was having increased anxiety and panic attacks due to the 6 day pack of steroids the ENT prescribed.  My primary care physician told me on Thursday to stop taking them.  I googled how long it would remain in my system and, of course, the answers varied.  Well, I can tell you, I think yesterday was my final day of having them in my system.  I had increased appetite all through yesterday and very poor sleeping.  Last night, I had a really good sleep and woke up feeling more “normal”.  I am at my normal hunger level.  I am glad to start feeling like myself a couple of days before the holiday.  I was afraid I’d be inhaling all food in my sight this week and be a grumpy mess.

Tomorrow, I get to have a full-day off alone with Roger.  The morning should be very relaxed with some homework mixed in.  The early afternoon  I have tickets to see Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer at Bass Hall in Ft. Worth.  I hope he finds it entertaining and enjoys the theatre.  This will be the first real play he has gone to.  I am excited to see his reaction and start the holiday season.  Yesterday, we visited Santa and he became shy Roger.  He was so happy though!

One of the greatest gifts is seeing your child exuberant!

 

What a week!

There were many times I thought about blogging this past week, especially when things were going well and I was very organized, focused, and accomplished.  However, I stayed on task and did not blog.  Today I feel overwhelmed, anxious, unfocused, agitated, and depressed.

Saturday night we went to see Ministry but my ear was in so much pain from previous sinus infections that we had to leave early.  Monday I started new medicines that included steroids.  The good news is my ear is feeling much better.  The bad news is that, although it gives me extra energy, it makes me incredibly angry, annoyed, and, overall, pissed off.  Each day I have a shorter fuse.  Tomorrow is my last day of the five day pack but I do not know how long it will linger in my system.  I am very sensitive to steroids but this seems to be the only med that has helped me with this over month long ear issue.

There are so many things coming up and that I have been planning on doing:  new rules/check system for Roger’s behaviors, selling our old dining room table, Thanksgiving next week, sorting through our bedroom “crap” so that we can get hardwood floors installed the Monday after Thanksgiving, trying to figure out what Roger wants for the holidays, hoping to sell toys and donate toys that Roger does not play with, getting bags of clothes ready for donation, etc.  The thought of all is just too much.  I want to just hide under the covers and wake up with everything done for me!

Let me get through this workweek and maybe then I can breathe and get in gear for the holidays!

 

Rainy Wednesday

Today started out as most weekdays –with the struggle over Roger’s shoes not being tight enough.  I know the weather change enhances some sensory issues.  This Wednesday it manifested itself over a shirt to wear.  The first shirt I chose was sweatshirt material.  Roger said it was too soft and to get it off him.  He was very upset.  The second shirt’s sleeves were a 1/4 inch too long for him, so he completely freaked out for a second time.  The third shirt worked but his shoes had to be tied multiple times.   The walk to school had light rain.  That he did not complain about.  The walk home the rain became heavier.  C’est la vie!

So today is a cold, rainy day.  The perfect day to be under covers in bed.  I tried to convince myself that I could skip my exercise for the day, since I did it the previous 3 days.  However, this seems to be my cycle.  By mid week, I usually start excusing myself from exercise.  Since I am volunteering the next two days and have an ENT appointment, I know I may not have time which made today’s workout more crucial for me.

Well, I did it and it’s over and I’m glad I did it and I’m glad it’s over.

November

I am hoping to have turned the corner on exercise and wellness.  Yesterday, I went to a yoga class for the first time in YEARS!  It was a restorative class and last night my cervical pain has been at its lowest.  Today, I did a 30 minute streaming cardio class.  The first fifteen minutes seemed pretty easy but the last fifteen was pretty difficult.  It felt great to complete.  I am hoping exercise along with my Headspace meditation will make dealing with my own and Roger’s anxiety easier.