Today started out as most weekdays –with the struggle over Roger’s shoes not being tight enough. I know the weather change enhances some sensory issues. This Wednesday it manifested itself over a shirt to wear. The first shirt I chose was sweatshirt material. Roger said it was too soft and to get it off him. He was very upset. The second shirt’s sleeves were a 1/4 inch too long for him, so he completely freaked out for a second time. The third shirt worked but his shoes had to be tied multiple times. The walk to school had light rain. That he did not complain about. The walk home the rain became heavier. C’est la vie!
So today is a cold, rainy day. The perfect day to be under covers in bed. I tried to convince myself that I could skip my exercise for the day, since I did it the previous 3 days. However, this seems to be my cycle. By mid week, I usually start excusing myself from exercise. Since I am volunteering the next two days and have an ENT appointment, I know I may not have time which made today’s workout more crucial for me.
Well, I did it and it’s over and I’m glad I did it and I’m glad it’s over.
Yesterday was my first day back at work. It was an 8 hour day. I took hourly breaks to walk and move my arms. During my lunch break, I did my 10 minute headspace meditation program and rested in bed an additional 10 minutes or so. After school, Roger had homework and then Occupational Therapy. After OT, we had our normal Chick-fil-A dinner and play date with his friend at our house. It was a long day, especially since part of my workload occurred between the 7 to 9 o’clock hours. I was very sore by the time I went to bed and woke up pretty sore too.
Today, I, again, took breaks and had my meditation/rest time during lunch. This afternoon will be pretty packed with Roger having a trial singing lesson at School of Rock, followed by his swimming lesson, followed by dinner at my parents house, followed by spelling homework, followed by showers/bed. I’m exhausted thinking about it! However, the routine and new 5 minutes-per-hour (in the morning) exercise schedule has put me in a better mood than I have been.
I am hoping my health, wellness, and recovery will flourish.
Today I am very hopeful.
Yesterday morning I had a lumbar epidural. I had a choice between local or general anesthesia. I chose general anesthesia and am glad I did. The back doctor had wanted a caudal epidural but I had extra bony growth, so the needle could not go the whole way in. They had to do a higher injection. The downside is that while I was under I coughed/sneezed the entire time. I came out of anesthesia with a bad sore throat, almost no voice, and a raw nose. Thankfully, they said I kept apologizing, so at least I was nice while under! However, I had Rob make me an appointment at our internist to see if I had more than just bad allergies. Today was my appointment and I have ANOTHER sinus infection.
My second appointment of the day was my follow-up with my orthopedic surgeon re: my ulnar nerve surgery. I am doing very well and she released me back to work on Monday. I told her how my other fingers are going numb and she fit me for a carpal tunnel splint. However, she thinks the problem is stemming from my cervical issue. I guess time will tell. I have another follow-up in 3.5 weeks.
I would be in a better mood if I got more than 2 hours 19 minutes sleep last night. The antibiotic shot must be somewhat working because my headache has subsided. Here’s hoping I am more myself before I head back to the workforce Monday!
Today I woke up feeling down, just an overall feeling of sadness. I looked around the messy living room and felt unease. I really wanted to clean it all up but was lacking the energy. Also, I had plans for coffee with some friends. I reluctantly went to coffee, for when I am down I am not feeling social. It was a nice hour but I still felt down and tired when I left (despite the additional 16 ounces of coffee).
I keep wondering why I feel so down and today’s Headspace meditation had me realize one factor. Today, it was focusing on if you are feeling pain and I realized my intention through the meditation and during this sick leave was to recover and rejuvenate. I am still in pain through my arms, my entire back, and now my feet. With virtually weeks of rest, my body has not rejuvenated itself. It has actually worsened in some areas. I was hoping when I was to return to work I would feel better than when I had my last working day.
Everyday I have thought about updating my blog and everyday I am too exhausted to open the computer. The high allergens are not helping my activity level. Add to that the limited activity of the day and I am an achy zombie most of the day! I have not been consistently taking any pain medication (even OTC, especially due to the fact I am having a lumbar epidural next Wednesday). My sleep and energy levels are the same post-op as pre-op, which I am not very happy about. I have been sleeping alone downstairs and I still cannot get a consistent five hours of sleep per night. I have begun taking melatonin which makes me fall asleep quicker, but does not aide in any other way.
I don’t want this post to be all bah humbug, so I will note some positive changes I have been trying to make in the past couple weeks. I have been attempting daily meditation via the app Headspace. Secondly, I have started using MyFitnessPal app again, consistently. I have shed a couple of pounds but find it hard to lose weight if I try to eat more than 1200 calories, which is too restrictive for me. Hopefully when I can add some exercise in, that will help my endeavor of losing these 35 pounds I have gained in TX the past 4 years!
Next Thursday, I have my next appointment with my surgeon and am hoping I can go back to work part-time, at least. I am very bored but do not think I have the energy level for full-time work, yet.
Well, I tried the hydrocodone with Benadryl to see if I could avoid the itchiness. It did not work, so I am taking 4 Advil every 8 hours or so. I slept much better last night due to the lack of itching and lack of repeated daytime naps. The day of surgery was like one long nap most of the day. Yesterday and today, I took only one afternoon nap.
The surgeon told Rob that my pain level would not increase from how I felt post-surgery. That’s not really been the case. Today my inner arm and elbow both feel like they’ve been cut open (which they have). Plus, my right shoulder feels wonky. It must be because of relying on my right arm these past few days. And, of course, when moving some Garbage Pail Kids, my left lumbar back went out/popped. I took muscle relaxers and put the heating pad on it, but it still hurts.
I attempted my first shower with a garbage bag arm and Rob waiting right outside. Who knew that a simple shower that is usually refreshing could wipe someone out so much!
Tomorrow is the first day of 1st grade and Rob’s last day home with me. Here’s hoping it is an easier day!
Yes, tomorrow is the big day: ulnar nerve decompression and transposition. I haven’t written lately due to trying to get done as much as I can before surgery and before Roger’s first day of school on Monday. I have been so wrapped up in planning that I have not had much time to think about the surgery. That was until last night.
Last night, Roger woke me up around 1 am to move into his bed. After he woke me, I started calculating the amount of hours I had before my surgery. I was up the next two hours, consumed with thoughts of surgery. Thankfully, I fell asleep for a couple more hours before starting the day.
Anxious is the feeling of the day. Hopefully, that will soon pass, and the new feeling will be rested.