Pellets

Yesterday, I got my hormone pellet inserted. This has been the best form of hormone therapy post-hysterectomy. I had my hysterectomy in 2013 a month before my 40th birthday. Since having my hysterectomy, I have been in a constant state of fatigue, brain fog, and extreme mood swings. The pellet helps me feel a tad more normal. If I am not on hormones, my estrogen and testosterone fall to zero and getting out of bed becomes a exhausting process.

I still am tired most of the time. I still cannot remember things moving from one room to the next. And I still have mood swings. My mood swings have lessened with the help of pellets and the meds my psychiatrist prescribes. One of those meds are supposed to give me more energy. I would prefer to say that it heightens my motivation vs. actually giving me energy. My exhaustion now depends mainly on sleep. Unfortunately, I am also a crappy sleeper.

In the midst of all this, I have gained an awful 40 pounds (40!!!!!!) over the past 12 years of being on and off hormones and on and off all types of psychiatric medications (also a few known to promote weight gain). This year I have been trying to focus on health. I may not be the best everyday. Actually the weekends/days off are the worst. I cave in to the sweets and during downtime I tend to eat more.

Monday through Thursday/sometimes Friday I am pretty good with good choices and behaviors. Today is Tuesday (my Monday, since I took yesterday off for my pellet appointment – it initially exhausts me for about 24 hours) and I am back on track.

Unfortunately, I cannot exercise or clean until Thursday afternoon due to the pellet. BUT this Friday may be my first tennis lesson in “oh so many” years. The weather looks promising. YAY! AND this weekend I am planning to try out my new bike (again I learned when I turned 37 and only rode a few months before I became pregnant). Roger hated the trailer, so we never rode bikes again. Now, 10 years later, I am taking the plunge.

YAY ME!

Insomnia

A few weeks ago my doctor prescribed a new medication to aide with my depression and lack of motivation. This medication would help “bump” up the effectiveness of my current depression and anxiety medication. It is working wonders on my motivation and energy (energy when I get enough sleep). However, one of the side effects is insomnia. My psychiatrist warned me but said to take melatonin. I was already taking melatonin. EVERY night I wake up between 1 and 3 and stay awake for hours before being able to fall back asleep. Monday – Thursday I wake up for work between 5:15 and 5:45 (depending if I exercise). This week, since my sleep has been between 4 and 5 hours, I opted to sleep the extra 30 minutes in the morning. Last night was the first night I got 7 hours of sleep (despite waking up for a bit of time around 2 am).

Today I have my virtual follow-up appointment. I hope she has a better suggestion than melatonin for the future. I want to stay on this medication but need my sleep. I was already a poor sleeper and I am getting worse. I hope I have not inherited my father’s curse of insomnia!